I feel like I'm in a daze of some sort.
The looks I get from people at school being with Sarah. Its like they are saying, "What happened to you man? I used to respect you."
Did they? Did they really?
A part of me doesn't care what they think. I don't guess. Its like I was never on the inner circle, anyway. I always felt I was on the outside. I'm that bastard his grandmother had to raise. What makes it any different now?
So yeah, Sarah is really taking this in stride.
Why is it I feel she's like ten years older than me instead of a couple of months? I feel so damn immature around her, you know. And I know what guys are thinking when they see me with her.
"How could you, man?"
They know their situation. See, its in the code. Unwritten, I suppose. Guys don't date girls who have, well, you know..had an abortion, even a miscarriage. I don't know why its that way. I really don't. Its quite sad when I think about it, but its like they're bad news, or something.
So I'm so tainted at the moment. Getting the silent treatment for the most part. But I don't care. I don't.
And Sarah knows it. I can tell when she smiles at me.
We have each other and that's where its at.