but is he only staying in the sarah relationship for the sex? from Taffy
Good question. Am I only sticking it out with Sarah- might not be the best comeback line...OK, being with Sarah can be overwhelming. Yeah, she's hot, but I can get a little lost with all her "directions". And yeah, it can be a little intimidating. I mean, she can get a little testy if some thing just don't go in the right order. I just laugh it off usually. Don't know how long that will last. I keep waiting to hear her say something like, "Lon would have never done it that way..." And maybe that's what holds me back that I have to be compared to somebody like Lon. I haven't said anything about it. But its there in the back of my mind.
I have to keep remembering, we've been going out how long now? You know I haven't really counted the days actually, but its the longest I've ever been with somebody. And I really wanted to see if I could be the better boyfriend than my half-brother, Lon. Yet I feel I get caught up in all the stuff that Sarah wants and I'm wondering if she even thinks about what I want.
I want to slow it down. You know, savor the little stuff. And sometimes, I get that. Like dancing in the kitchen, cuddling while watching TV. I just don't want her to go overkill with all this. You know like that song from the 80's "Don't let love tear us apart".
And yeah, every-time we have sex there is a slight fear..what if we have a kid. That can really mute the mood.
And I think that hurts the most...the thought of being used for one thing. What if that's what this is all about? Her wanting a baby. She hadn't said it. I haven't said it. So yeah, I just really want us to enjoy each others company, and it doesn't always have to be about sex.