Its a short week. Supposed to be at school. 3 days off. Sleeping late. Well, maybe Wednesday if I'm lucky. Thursday is our big hunt day out at Ben's. I think my uncle is a bit peeved that I'm not hunting with him at Nana's. Whatever.
I gotta say I'm a little scared. You know, going with Lon. Cause what if he shoots me. Accidentally.
I wish I wouldn't think this nor dream about it. But its getting to me. I guess.
Then I think Sarah knows. I don't mean to be mean or anything. I don't know what it is. I just wanted to be alone today and she just can't seem to understand that. I didn't take her calls yesterday. I just sort of laid around mostly. Thinking. I know. Boring.
I had to eat Sunday dinner with Lon. He came over. Everyone was you know, cordial and all. And we had pot roast and all. It was like Thanksgiving to me. Already. Don't know what my step-mom has in store with us. Since I've got to go so many places and everything.
I just know I made Sarah mad. Its just I can't be you know super happy all the time. She's not. why do I have to be?
So much is going on. A basketball game tomorrow night. I know we'll go out after the game. We have to. That is if she doesn't explode before then.